~ wANA b with y0u ~

i know that u dont wana talk about it , but i gotta put it in your mind .. i feel like we've been through this story a thousand times .. i feel like we've been going around and around in circles .. why , we gotta put this behind us ?? why is it that everytime i looked in your eyes i see something wrong , insecurity .. when all along i was trying make it right , keep us going strong and loving u faithfully .. daddy , listen to me , please dont walk away .. c0z if u ever need me , i'd be l0st , i'd be going crazy .. coz i dont want nobody else , i just wanna be with u .. u're the only one who completes me .. and u're the one who makes me whole ...

p/s; 18th feb 2010 ,pic ni d ambil .. hangout ngn family myrol .. g makan mee udang ktne ntah lupa .. miss dis day ... n i will miss all things that we've been through ..

** c0nfiusin' **

arini , tataw la na cakap cmner .. tengah ary tadi , myrol text ninie .. lega ckit ninie rasa .. walaupown kami da ta macam dulu .. ninie still col dye daddy , sowey , mmy ta biasa lagi .. kami mcj lama la jugak .. dye tnya ninie ada mne , and ninie cakap otw g JURU .. and he say nape g sana , sana bukan ada apa .. and ninie cakap , penang da ta dew sapa untuk ninie .. so ninie membawa dri kew juru ... myrol ada gtaw ninie , 5th April 2010 , dye akan suwoh mama dye masuk meminang ninie .. hahaa .. lawak !! papew je laa .... eemm .. tadi dalam pukul 8mlm , mat ilyas text ninie tnya ada mne .. ninie gtaw la yang ninie membawa diri ke juru .. then dye gtaw myrol wat rambut baru , so ninie cakap patut ke ninie taw ??? n he say yeahh !!! hurmm ?? kurang paham .. why ?? huhh !! mcj mcj ngan mat ilyas , tetba my fon ringing ... mohd amyrol fitri call .. hurmm ??? weird .. sb sejak kejadian aritu , dye ta call ninie langsung , even mcj pown ta .. just ym , nanes2 ninie kat opis masa ym ngan dye .. nape , ta yahh la taw ...myrol call ninie , kami bual bual pastu dye gtaw ninie yang dye botakkan rambut dye .. and ninie cakap kat okayy !! tataw na kata apa ...suka aty dye , kang amik taw lebeyh , cakap menyibok !! tapi kang , ninie ada sumthing na gtaw dye tapi ninie ta gtaw pown .. na taw apa .. imy n ily .. hahaha .. pas myrol call , mama dye plak call .. adoyyy !!! mama dye suwoh esok pas zohor datang umah .. dowang wat kenduri .. kenduri ca'ol bertunang ngang kenduri doa selamat .. ninie gtaw ninie ada kt juru .. mama dye cakap myrol pown gtaw benda yang sama , and mama dye ada gtaw mama dye tnya kat myrol why dye ngan ninie , kami da ta kawan kew n na taw myrol cakap apa , myrol cakap kami still kapel .. pelik kan .. nape kena cakap cmni , taw la kami just break sekejap .. tapi break jugak walaupown sekejap ... huhuu .. parents dye and member menber dye sume tataw sal kami .. dowang ingat kami just gado ... gado cam slalu ...actually kan ninie ta paham .. kami betol break sekejap kew @ sebenarnye kami ta break ??? huhh !! pening ... tataw la , tengok la nanti ... ninie da penat .. penat pretend yang sume okayy ... now ninie just na tengok .. tunggu and lihat ... daaa ... p/s: pic ni kat queensbay , 11th feb 2010 .. tensen sangat .. ym ngan myrol sampai nanes nanes , kat opis plak tuhh .. ta leyh trima sume .. g copink , walaupown tengah pokai ..

[ku menghibur aty duka]

~ TAMAT n TO B CONTINUE ~

1st ninie na gtaw , chapter mandy kolam da tamat ... kemungkinan akan bersambung pada 5th April 2010 .. klu ta dew papew halangan , insyaallah akan bersambung .. wish me luck kayy ... and sebelom tarikh tu sampai , ninie na minta tolong kat kowang supaya jangan sebot pasal kolam lagi .. it will make me sad .. we need a time ...
and this for you .. ;

my love is forever ,

you're my reason , my peace ,

my light and my only truth ..

love is givin with nothing to expect in return ..

you are how i dream ..

your smile is the sun of every dawn ..

without you,

i dont know how i breath ..

in your body ,

i found my other half !!

i love u forever ..

with love ,

.. mummy ..

~ jat0 dari badak ~

arini , 11th feb 2010 , aku jato moto .. aduh saket doe !! rasa cam tulang patah .. tapi ta patah pown .. luka pown rasa nye ta dew ... tapi tataw la , na taw ada luka kew ta , tunggu time mandy nanti .. hahhaa~ kete ni dari jalan elok elok tetiba benti .. bukan ada gajah kat depan tuh .. apa pown ta dew .. buleyh jalan la wei .. ni ta tetiba benti .. dye benti sebab takot na jalan .. ayoo , jalan tuhh bukannye sempit sangat ... if takot sangat , jangan jalan kat situ laaa ... ngekk !! kete jewrr besa , otak kechik !! ta pasal pasal aku jadi mangsa ... gewam gyler ni .. da la tuhh , bukan na tolong aku , buleyh wat derkk jewrr .. buleyh plak maknya tuh tengok belakang pastu jalan twos .. aduh !! mendidih gyler aty + otak aku ni !! nasib aku ta sempat tengok no.plat (ta ingat) .. klu ta , calar kete + pancin tayar hang .. padan muka !! bangang ta sudah !! pffff !! actually , bukan kete 2 jewr yg salah , salah aku jugak .. nganga .. otak melayang layang .. huhh !! i miss u , sayang .. really miss u !! :(

~ y0U ~

You are the one who makes me happy .. when everything else turns to grey .. yours is the voice that wakes me mornings .. and sends me out into the day .. you are the crowd that sits quiet .. listening to me .. to all the mad sense I make .. you are one of the few things worth remembering .. and if it's all true .. how can anyone mean more to me than you .. sorry if sometimes I look past you .. there's no one beyond your eyes .. inside my head the wheels are turning .. hye , sometimes im not so wise .. you are heart ... my inspiration ..

y0ur love ,

.. mummy ..

~ dAlAM k0tAK AtY sAYA ~

~ nadia ~
nad, she my bestbestbest girl fwen eva !! my beloved bestie's .. love she so much .. dye fwenly taw .. kami buleyhh d katakan 1 otak .. we've been known each other for along tym ago .. ta la lama sgt .. around 4years .. she juz like my sis .. actually nad muda than me , dye bawu 21thn dis year .. but she take care of me just like her own lil'sister .. huhuu~ na wat cmner , prangai ninie mmg like a kiDs .. huhu~ kanak kanak milo la katakan !! haha~ if g club , mesti kena ada nad , coz dye akan jaga ninie .. cam aritu g carmen , ninie kena kepong ngan budak budak laki mne ntah !! hahh !! scary , lari twos kat nad !! tp ninie ta gtaw dye apa jd , dh balik bawu gtaw .. ntah takut !! kadang kami ni macam belangkas , actually ninie tataw apa tuhh belangkas , owg slalu ckap cmtuh ninie cakap jew laa .. hahaa~ tp now kami dh jarang jumpa , coz masing masing bz ngan kjew !! tapi 5th feb 2010 , kami hangout together.. me , nad , ez (her bF) and ikan (her fwen) .. g tengok movie cite FAME , midnite , b4 tuh g makan makan kt gurney drive , pas abis tengok movie kteowg g kar0ke .. rancang pas tengok movie na g club tapi ntah laaa .. kami g kar0ke !! hahaa~ its fun wlaupown kena tahan ngn roadblock bape kali tapi ta kena saman laa ... kami owg kerajaan , haha~ papew pown nad , i love u so much .. muahh muahhh muahhhh ...
p/s; nad cakap cam kartun !! haha!! sowey nad !!

~ nur syazwani ~
my gf !! not les kayy ... actually she's my ex madu .. haha~ madu ?? dye ex-gal mohd afifi .. tym ninie kapel ngan fi , fi kapel ngan dye .. pandai mamat ni sorok kan !! tp ni ninie laa .. ninie leyh rasa klu ada owg wat salah kt ninie ... n now c mamat ni ta abis abis cakap dye still love me .. come on la , i got bf already n dye pown da gf .. take care yor gf laa ... da da .. bukan na cite sal mamat poyo ni .. ninie na gtaw sal my gf , wanie .. she gojesh aite !! dye ta sombong , fwendly .. dye baik , but watch out , dun mess ngan dye , she can be wild !! haha~ she crazy , sweet , caring , lovely , open and more !! i just love the way she is .. she younger than me !! hahaa~ i l0ve u la gf !! muahh muahh !!

p/s; sume kawan2 ninie yg rapat sume nye muda dr ninie , tataw la why ..

~ m0hammad shamier ~
who's this ? a friends . :) the only part tym lover i had .. haha!! not think to much! i had myrol lah . he my bestbestie .. he always there when i need him , he kinda cute :) . grr .. dye so "noty" + degil , and pantang jewrr ada owg wat ta betol kt dye , mesti akan kna maki ngn dye . kadang parents dye pown kena .. shmr shmr .. ninie punye penat la nasihat kaum adam sekor ni . tp bangangg ta suda . haa , tp actually shmr ni sweet sgt .. every second time ninie text dye , mesti ninie akan senyum :) and mesti ninie na gelak . haha , dye mmg funny . always wat ninie senyum even time tuh ninie ada problem , pandai layan karenah ninie , baik , kadang sengal + sewel and kelakar . :) hihi .btw , ninie ngan shmr , kami ta penah jumpa wlupown da hampir 2thn kami kenal .. dye stay kt alor star , ninie penang .. wlupown kami jauh tp kami always together .. "cinta sayangg shamir ok ?" :) ninie syg dye bukan sb prangai dye @ cara dye cam myrol .. ninie syg dye sb dye !! ninie ngaku yg prangai shmr ni ta ubah cam prangai myrol .. myrol pown suka maki owg bila owg bg dye naik angin .. tp bila ninie bersama myrol , dye sweet sgt .. myrol n shamir , owg yg berbeza tp sama perangai !! love both of them !! shamir , cinta harap sangat our fwenship ni akan berkekalan .. ilysdm .. :) muahh muahhh muahh

p/s: shamir call me cinta not ninie !!
~ nor ayumi amaniyna a.k.a yumi munyit ~
my gf jugak !! huhu~ skali lagi , not leS kayy !! yumi kawan ninie yg paling muda , 16thn dis year .. huhu~ she's sweet , baik , sengal ,funny and crazy .. mulut dye ta dew insurans .. dye akan cakap apa jew yg dye suka .. yumi is da 1st person yg cakap ninie ta dew tetek and ta leyh lawan dye punya .. hahaa~ she mean kechik lorr .. memandai jewrr budak kechik ni .. ada la , tanya daddy if ta caya .. opss !! (joking kayy) hahaa~ i just love the way she is .. sayangg kamo yumi munyit !! muahh muahh muahhh ... hope 1day kte leyh hangout together !!p/s; kami kenal melalui myspace ...

~ fight n fight .. lie n lie ~

today is not like an usuall . last nite we had a fight .. how could you do those thing to me , how could you lie to me ? you break my heart into a pieces , this a damn hurt you know ! this pain just to real . you hurting me too much ! not you realised that ! huh , i love you to much till i cant think the right and positively , on that nite , i cannot feel and think anything else , except im death / doom ! . ;( how could you ?? mummy tataw na kata ape , before ni bf mummy semua mesti da kena . tapi ngan daddy ati mummy still leyh saba agi , cause mmy ta leh na marah daddy ;( tataw knpe , myb sbb mummy sygs daddy sgt kot :)daddy cakap daddy demam , n mummy worry sangat !! cause tetba u demam .. mummy col u , u kata u ada kat gurney , makan and jangan risaw pasal kamo .. sb daddy just headache and ddy da mam panadol .. try to not worry about u , tapi ntah my heart rasa ta sedap !! i col u again , around 11:40pm .. mirza pick up fon n cakap daddy g toilet .. mummy tanya lama kew ta , dye cakap lama .. mummy tanya lama kew ta sb mmy dengar suara kamo d belakang .. toilet belakang mirza kan ... daddy swoh mirza cakap cmtuh kan .. but why ?? ta pew mummy try relax , mummy ta na marah marah .. i col u agi kul 12am .. 7kali i col u , u ta angkat , then kali ke-8 bawu angkat .. tanya why lambat , u cakap ta dengar cause pasang radio kuat .. daddy ta dengar bunyi fon .. hurrmmm ... da laa ... mummy bukan budak budak sayangg .. im big enough .. and mummy leyh berfikir ... daddy , mummy da wat keputusan , mulai dari saat ni , N00R HAZWANI bt ZAKARIA ta kan amik taw pasal kamo .. wat la apa yg kamo suka .. i dun care n i wont care .. daddy , setiap owg ada tahap kesabaran dye kan , so jangan sampai mummy hilang saba , n do sumthing !! mungkin mummy akan minta clash !! mummy love you sangat tapi now kamo da melampau .. and mummy da ta leyh trime sume ni ... sowey ! if you still love mummy , try dapat kan aty mummy balik !! if ta kemungkin bila bila masa jew mummy leyh undur diri ..
p/s; nothing is more painfull then realizing he meant everything to you , but you nothing to him !! n lukisan tuhh menunjukkan perasaan ninie (lukisan sendiri) .. sakit sangat aty ni ..

~ makan besar ngan family myrol !

6th Feb 2010 , Saturday .. around 7:30pm mama myrol call and aja g makan kat Bayu Senja , Batu Feringghi .. g 2 buah kete .. kete mama myrol n kete mat ilyas .. ninie n adik naik ngan mama myrol .. myrol naik ngan mat ilyas n din .. sume lapan owang .. + ngan baba myrol n adik dye , anas ... mama myrol tanya ninie apa yang sedap , so ninie suggest ikan masak 3rasa n siput masak pedas .. n mama order ikan stim , tomyam campur , sayur kailam ikan masin , n telor .. banyakkan !! huhuu!! n yang clean n clear makanan yang ninie suggest kan .. huhu!! ninie da cakap sedap ... masa makan tuhh , myrol ada gtaw kat parents dye , if ada dengar suara pelik yang kuat , sume tengok laut .. mama dye tanya nape , dye cakap nanti ada owang sendawa dengan kuat .. jaat perli ninie ... :) huhuu~ pas makan , mama myrol bawa ninie g istana kedah , umah ca'ol , apa ntah nama mak ca'ol da lupa ... lepak lepak kat sana sambil makan kuaci n tengok bola ... myrol cakap ninie tikus betina makan kuaci sambil tengok bola ... jaat kan !! suka aty la .. sebok jewrr .. huhuu~ around pukul 12am camtuh bawu kami balik .. tapi tym balik tuhh , ujan lebat gylerr .. cam ribut .. angin kuat + ada guruh .. ninie takut guruh ... tapi nasib baik ada adik , klu ta tataw laa .. huhuu~

~ hAngout ~

31st jAn 2010

hangout ngn parents amyrol fitri ..

actually benda ni ta rancang pown .. ninie kuar ngan myrol g makan kt khaleel gurney .. then lepak lepak jap kt cna .. pastu mat datang , member myrol .. mat ckp dye , mat ilyas sume na mndy kolam .. haha~ ninie suka .. dalam setengah jam camtu kami balik g umah myrol .... nine ta bawak baju , so im wearing baju myrol n suar dye .. like always laa .. hahaa~ sementara tuggu c mat ilyas ngan botak .. ninie terjun dulu laa ... ne leyh tengok kolam lama .. ninie , myrol n mat kami mandy dulu ... hahaa~ lambat tinggal !! dalam syok syok dok mandy tuhh , tetiba anas datang ( adik myrol ) gtaw mama myrol ajak g batu feringghi , makan laksa .. myrol tamo p coz tunggu kawan2 dye na datang so ninie la jadi mangsa ... ninie kena follow parents dye .. so yang g ninie , parents myrol n anas .. kami berempat !! huhuu~ dari mula perjalanan sampai ke batu feringghi mama myrol ta benti2 cakap .. tanya macam2 .. baba myrol yg sebelom ni jarang cakap ngan ninie pown cakap jugak ..

and dowg ada gtaw ninie pasal myrol tym myrol kechik .. tym dye baru umo brape ary .. mama cakap tym tuhh myrol nyawa nyawa ikan .. hampir hampir na maty ... dye sakit apa ntah , ninie ta paham sgt .. mama cakap dye kena amik air tulang belakang baru okayy .. macam2 benda ninie taw pasal dye .. cannot guna pampers murah coz kulit sensitif , ta leyh minum susu biasa nanty cirit birit , sume benda untuk dye yg standard .. woww !! tp baba cakap dye jahat !! suka lawan cakap dowg .. huhuu~ pas abis makan , mama myrol ajak baba myrol g nite market kat batu feringghi , jalan jalan n mama ada beli barang sedikit !! yang best nye tym mama beli cermin mata , huhu~ tataw na cakap cmne .. dh la ada orang tua jepon sebelah kami , dye na wana hitam tp dye cakap "i want blue want" its black laaa not blue ... pe laa ... pas g nite market baba myrol singgah kat istana kedah umah pakcik myrol .. pakcik makcik n cak ol jew yg ada .. and dowg cakap pasal pertunangan cak ol .. mama myrol cakap nanty if ninie na ikot pown buleyh ... huhuu~ tamo takut !! before balik mama bawak g makan lagi .. adoyy !! laksa dalam pewot pown still ada lagi ni , na makan lagi .. huhu~ cakap kat mama dh kenyang tapi mama swoh makan gak so nine just makan roty telor !! pas makan balik !! huhuu~ balik balik , myrol call tya ada mne , and cakap kat dye bawu sampai umah .. and dye ........... huhu~ padan muka sapa swoh ta ikot !! hehee~