b0rEd !!!!!!!

hahahaa, im way too bored

soweyy for my crazy updated ><

i cant left my blog blank

i dont like it

it seems Blank enough

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lASt niGht ....

all i can say is SORRY

i can't tell u what im doin last night

cause i've promised someone about it

" i must keep my promise that i've made "

please forgive me :(

please don't ignore me :(

P.L.E.A.S.E!!!!

confuse ...

it come and go and then come again.

thought i already try my best to avoid it

i pretending not to think bout that thing

i try to laugh, smile and forget the thing

but it always come itself..

and for sure, it is HURTING !!

i just tired with all this

i always cry over it and sometime i feel

i wasn't strong anymore to face it

but

i love our RELATIONSHIP

and that is the reason i force myself to be strong

and it wouldn't let me drown in that thing.

what is the thing??

[hard to describe]

**sigh**

wee' it is the struggle to understand each other

misunderstood always haunting us

we can't reach the best understanding between us

although everyone see us as a great COUPLE !!

but nobody know what happened between us ..

AMIRUL FITRI (brock) a.k.a DADDY

i love u sygss ..

and ni doubt, u love me too ...

but why it become so hard for us

we already tried to solve this 100x times

we chat happily, hangout together and this come again

i feel so bad as this topic popped out

i know, our conversation will become dull AGAIN

we will stop joking, laughing and become serius

Damn ..

i hate when i have to strive to this thing AGAIN ..

You asked me:

"why its so hard for u to understand me?"

"why u always make a things big?"
"why u always cry ? u cry everyday
just because your misunderstanding habit"
"why u always misunderstand to me???"
"why our relationship so hard like this??"

(=_=)

these questions....
always come out from your mouth
and i don't know what is the best answer
I AM CONFUSE
im confuse to myself why i become like this
why i always misunderstood on you

why?

i lost myself.

my disease become worse~

i need a cure ....

"why we become like this because the link within our heart is so weak"
"it isn't enough to be "daRling" just by sharing thoughts, experience and problem
but we must strengthen the link in our heart to reach the understanding"

huhh !!

Place : My Daddy's Room
Condition : Realize by Colbie Caillat playing
Mood : Not really good, confuse & really need someone to cheer me up.

" i really thought all this already ended. But it's not like what i expected to be."

Okay okayy, sowey for the emo thing, i just cant avoid it. All this started 1ominute ago...

Daddy, mumy tataw samada mumy salah @ ta .. tp seriusly mumy ta suka sume ni ... i knw i do da same thgs too but ni sume bcoz of u ... mumy taw, dady love me, n mumy love dady gak.. and dady taw how much i love u kn sygss .. tp sumtym mumy terfikir ttg apa owg kata .. yeahh i knw "mulut owg ta blh tutup" but kadg kelakuan dady mnunjuk kn apa yg dowg ckp tu BETOL ... daddy, mumy soweyy .. soweyy sb ckp n pk sume ni ..

my burfdayy 2011

happy birthday to me !!

actually my bday 29th FEB, not 28 ... tp d sebabkn dis year 29 ta dewr dlm calender so dowg pakat2 wish 28 .. n ninie taw, sbnarnye ada yg tataw gak my REAL BIRTHDAY ..

so kayyy, bkn slh kowg pown .... ni salah doc la [tba2 ja doc yg kna] ..

fyi, tarikh lahir ninie sbnrnye jato pada 3rd March 1988,

tp mama kata ninie ni "gedixx" [dlm mksd yg agak baik ya] n ta sabar na tgk DUNIA,

so ninie kuar awal on 29th FEB 1988, 23:57pm ...

lg 3mnit ja kn na 00:00 1st MArch, huhuu~

klu ninie sabar ckt sume tiap2 thn ada bday .. tp ninie ta kata pn ninie ta suka tarikh bday ninie,

ninie suka sgt, wat ninie rs special .. and no, dye cm chantek gak .. haha~

byk owg wish kt ninie arini, thx ya .. 1st person yg wish SYAZWAN JAMIL..

Thanks yaa ..

wlupown kte bwu jewrr knl, tp u taw bl my bday, i mean my real birthday ...

i akn tuntut jnji u, next year kte akn celebrate my REAL BIRTHDAY together ...

ninie epy sgt arini sb kwn2 ninie ta kira new fwens @ old fwens,

sume wish kt ninie tp my family ..... :(

myb dowg lupa, ta pewrr .... :)

and my SAYANG ....

dady, dady lupa kewr ??

bwu 2 3 ari lepas ja dady kta na sambut bday mumy ..

tp ta dewrr pown ..

mumy ta harap sgt na celebrate ni sume, sb mumy taw kite cmne skg ni ..

tp bl sume owg wish mumy epy bday kt mmy,

mumy hanya harap bnda tu dtg dr dady dulu ....

hurmmm .. tataw na ckp pewrrrr ..

im soweyy if mumy ada hurt dady ...

....

in relationships, ta dela everythings sweet, for a few months maybe yahh..lepas tu, kene la get ready kalaw ade pape jadi..misunderstanding ke, jealous or pape je yang leh bagi kesan buruk dlm hubungan..memang kite tataw siape jodoh kite and kat mane kite akan jumpe dia..tapi setau ninie,, even kite tataw but kite still leh usahe untuk dapatkan yang terbaik dalam hidup..dengan segale doa, tawakal dekat ALLAH...insyallah everythings akan smooth...kene sabar lah..selagi kite yakin die memang untuk kite, selagi tu lah ALLAH akan sentiasa bagi peluang untuk kite berubah.. :)

always in love with you sygs ...

Confession

It beats...it continues to beat

Ever since I met you for the first time by chance

I must of fallen, I must have really fallen for you

I cannot stare straight into your eyes

Your light hands, your white face, I cannot even touch it once

I want to kiss your transparent lips

Saying I love you, saying I love you to you

Those words wash away when I'm in front of you

Like the many stars it is the worlds most abundant words

It is only me who still cannot pull those words out

Just like a fool, I am just like a fool

No matter how many times I practice, only wrong words come out

Your light hands, your white face, I cannot even touch it once

I want to kiss your transparent lips

Saying I love you, saying I love you to you

Those words wash away when I'm in front of you

Like the many stars it is the worlds most abundant words

It is only me who still cannot pull those words out

That if I could bump into you

I walk slowly at the place you constantly walk

Saying the words "I love you" thousands of times to myself

Even though I'm nervous, I will say it today

I love you, only I love you

Please say something, just hurt me this one time

Without anyone knowing, just a secret to both of us

Lets love, with no one knowing, lets love

Lets love

Let us both love

your truly,

niniewithlove ...